it is only now that a lesson taught in PSI finally sank into me. i can recall the many times i reminded myself of this, but i always seem to forget - even if i posted the saying in a wall in my room so i can remember. but now, i can feel that it has really become a part me, and i will carry it as my life journeys - from here on until it ends.
it is this:
"Today is the first and the last day of my life". It's one of the most profound wisdom i have ever encountered, which also happened to be conveyed by one of the most profound mentors i have ever encountered in my life.
before i type this out, i took notes in my little journal/notebook about this realization which is one of the highlights in my recent enlightened state. and as i continue on (thank goodness, i am able to get back on my feet quickly now, unlike before when i would tend to dwell on regret & contemplation way too much) to the stuff that are waiting for me to be accomplished, i also start with a new me. heck, this is why i hoped to die.
another thing, i also learned to count my blessings and not to be envious of others (thanks also to lily & jp which served as instruments for me to see the light, especially this week).
slowly, i create strength. i already made a commitment to not give up myself. so even if the flame is feeble, i don't think it will fade. i already have it, and it's where i start building strength.
*pats to self* ^_^
i typed out a big letter "I" to the particle "It" which refers to the saying.
subconsciously, i attach this wisdom to a much Higher Source.
(reminds me of sth dr. scott peck said)
Posted by: musmouse | 12 July 2009 at 04:56 PM
(ref: 1st paragraph) - the uncertainty involved in having freelance work may have contributed to this; some sort of habit in thinking is created subconsciously. it's a good sign.
Posted by: musmouse | 12 July 2009 at 05:17 PM